It is so weird to be back on here! It has literally been over a month and I am so excited to start writing again! I was having issues with my laptop + I needed a little break from this part of my life for a bit, and now that my laptop is up and running, I also feel refreshed and ready to begin sharing again! I think this break has been really good for me for a few reasons, one being that it has actually made me miss it (so now I can be excited to blog again!) and more importantly, I am ready to be even more authentic in upcoming posts. Don’t get me wrong, I have never pretended to be someone else, nor have I talked about things that are not genuine topics of interest to me… But somethings always felt off since I started this website in the beginning of the year: I didn’t allow myself to be totally vulnerable in my writing, and I put too much pressure on myself for both perfection and sticking to a certain “type” of blog post or imagine negative things “others would think” if I wrote about certain topics– ultimately ignoring myself and giving power to an imaginary source (the voices and perceived judgement of “others”).
I started this blog for two purposes: to share my message of health by teaching and inspiring others, and to have an outlet to write my thoughts, feelings, goals, and life down in. Some people create art by drawing or painting, others by music or poetry, mine is simply just writing. And when I limit myself on things I “can” write about on here, I limit my true potential for the sake of creating a self-imposed ideal that is actually not what I wanted in the first place. And this month away from writing has opened my eyes to that. I am stoked to share blogs about nutrition, recipes, a plant-based diet, fitness, and mindset, but I am also proud to share more about myself: because writing has always been one of the best ways for me to find happiness by getting out of my head and transferring my thoughts into written words.
I’ve been on a consistent road to finding balance and peace of mind through the changes, flows, and new directions of life. Change makes me uncomfortable sometimes, as it does for most people. We like consistency, we like to know what will happen and we like to figure out rough probabilities for the things we can’t plan for 100%. It’s probably in our human DNA for survival, but I know it works against me in someways. I like to find my weaknesses so I can learn from them and actively fight against them. This past month has been one of those time periods, including: ending (or, pausing) my full-time job (I work at a school, and the school year ended), starting a new summer camp job, to suddenly working both summer school & summer camp jobs back to back in one day (because I actually love them both), hitting pause on both the blog & the blog-instagram page, shifting my workouts from primarily HIT/cardio/class style to primarily weight training and boxing (a new found love of mine), having my sister nearby and planning small frequent trips with her, and soaking in the summer weather outside since it is by far my favorite time of year.
One of the biggest lessons I have learned through experience is to assess…and adjust…and re-assess…and re-adjust…and re-assess…and re-adjust. Over and over, forever. Each day is literally a new life because each day (and each moment after each experience, interaction, thought, feeling) we become new again. I am not the same as when I woke up because this day has been full of brand new experiences that have altered me in the slightest ways…and each day will continue to build upon that for the rest of my life until I look back one day and wonder “when did I become this person?” (to which then I would ultimately realize that it was a slow and gradual process that is beautiful and confusing at the same time). The balance of our lives and what ratios it entails changes frequently depending on our varying needs over time. The way we divide our lives up with the time we are given is so sacred and should be spent in a way that is true to us from moment to moment. Some days I’m all about going to work, the gym, and eating a big healthy meal at home. Other days I want to go hiking, out to lunch, and drink some wine while watching a movie with my boyfriend. Both are awesome. Both are me. Both should be honored, therefore both should fit in to my life as needed. Same goes for you and whatever your lifestyle is: honor your favorite things, treat yourself well, and don’t let life pass you by while you focus way too hard on what someone has convinced you that you “should” be doing with your time. They were probably wrong anyways 😉 We must honor our changing selves as time passes, accepting that we become a new person with each passing day, interaction, and experience. Trust your inner guide to take you in the right direction and remember that everything you do is a choice, so choose wisely in the way you spend your most valuable asset: TIME.
I am loving the person I continue to become as I learn how to balance my life. I don’t always feel this way though, I have my moments of doubt, stress, and insecurity too. I worry and I wonder and I let it affect me even though I know when it shouldn’t. I take things too personally and I get irritated with the people I love the most. I am too hard on myself and I put to much pressure on myself for perfection. I barely make it on time to anything in life and have trouble sleeping a full 8 hours…. But, I am also positive and optimistic. I am resilient and forgiving. I am intelligent, enthusiastic, and excited about my existence. I am fascinated with the stars and galaxies and obsessed with learning more about how food affects the human body. I am determined and persistent, I work towards any goal I set for myself. I love my current field of work and am happy to do something I love everyday. I take care of myself. I smile often, am full of love, and see the best in others. I am forever on the journey of self-improvement, and in this, I am becoming comfortable with my weaknesses and learning to admire and rock my strengths.
The title of this blog is also the name of a new blog type category on my homepage. I have added “A Little More Me” to create proper space for these types of blogs when I want to do nothing more than just write–not teach or research or think too hard….just space to share. By allowing myself to write what I want when I want, and giving myself a special section for personal sharing, I know I will feel the desire to write about all things much more frequently… because I am allowing my writing self to show its full self. So, if you are interested in any future posts (healthy living and just regular Aly posts)… enter your email and hit the subscribe button @ the bottom of the page for updates!
For anyone who actually read all the way through, thank you. For anyone who has read any blog previous to this, thank you. To anyone who has ever shared these blogs before, thank you. To anyone who has helped inspire me to write, share, teach, or learn…thank you. I feel a little more me as my life continues and am ready to devote time here again. THANK YOU!